I somehow managed to roll out of bed to work out this morning. After yesterday’s wedding in what felt like the Sahara Desert, I was convinced that the dehydrated state of my body (despite chugging water all day yesterday) would make today’s workout with Ray incredibly difficult.
The workout was difficult, but not any more than any other day. So I’ll take that. The extreme soreness from last week seems to have dissipated but that just might mean that we’ve concentrated on muscles I do currently use so they are stronger. Only time will tell but I’ll keep praying to whatever God that will answer if we can eliminate extreme soreness.
What I will confess is that today….today all I wanted was a Cookie.
I have a about 3 different packs of those specialty Oreos sitting on top of my fridge. I bought them when I was expecting friends for a craft day as a munchie, but we had so much food that day that most were left. Today, they were taunting me as I grabbed healthier options throughout the day.
I’m not a HUGE snacker at home because I normally don’t have that kind of stuff in my house. Purposely? No not at all. I work at a place where snacks are readily available so I often get my fulfillment there and just grocery shop for essentials at home. I spend so much time at work, that stocking up my fridge and pantry is not something I focus on. I shop when I need stuff.
Well today…today I really wanted a cookie.
I had some wedding cake last night, so I’m trying to understand why my brain is in serious craving mode. I’m not hungry…so this is clearly my brain trying to convince me it’s okay to have an Oreo tonight. I even went so far as to read the calories in a suggested serving size. OMG! I don’t think I’ve ever looked at that and realized how much of a waste of calories there were in a serving, let alone how much people normally eat. It’s a bit insane.
But why tonight? It’s been a week, and I’ve done pretty well. I like food and I am a pretty damn good cook, so I can make anything taste good without adding many calories. But why is my body screaming for the sugar?
Well, I think my body is trying to tell me that it’s missing it’s source of comfort. This has to be a psychological response because I’m not hungry but yet I want it. When I’m stressed or exhausted, I guess I do sometimes eat my feelings (or drink them – ha!).
I’m really exhausted today and still actively trying to re-hydrate from yesterday. I even took a 3 hour nap today – which I never do! Maybe this myth of I get enough sleep is just that – a myth. Or maybe this upswing in activity is expending more energy, and I’m not fueling my body correctly with proper nourishment or sleep.
So rather than grab a cookie, I decided to focus on documenting my first week in my fitness planner. I decided to focus on the artsy side of my brain because that often helps me kill time. Laying out the week helped me see that I really need to plan some better snack options. I’ll have to do some research on quick and easy snacks to help me curb these unnecessary cravings.
I’m also going to be better about taking my vitamins. I’m a girl who has low vit D, b12 and iron (slightly anemic). Iron levels also obviously take a big dip once a month if you’re a gal of a certain age, so maybe this exhaustion is primarily nutrition based.
So it’s time to focus on some recharging of the body nutrient wise and maybe also increasing my normal 5-6 hours of sleep.
I don’t have time to be tired! I’ve got things to do damnit!